Friday, September 21, 2012

I get what your saying, but you don't understand me.

Okay, so when it comes to relationships everyone seems to have the best advice. If it worked for them, then it obviously should work for you right? Wrong!! I have heard everything under the moon when it comes to finding a nice guy. Don't look for him, he'll come to you, try looking at guys you don't normally look for, no one can love you until you love yourself, and I don't love God enough to have a good man in my life. Really?! It is so very frustrating.

I know I am a good person, do I get overly excited when I first meet someone I like? Yes, is that bad? Well with the wrong guys yes, but in a way its not because it helps weed out the bad ones. However, so I ever see those signs, or listen to my gut? Nope. This last guy I met, I totally missed all the sign right in front of me. I did pray that things would go well (Yes, I do believe in and love God, so that theory blows) and I asked for a sign. The next day, I barely heard from this guy. HELLO SIGN right in front of me, and I completely ignored it. Apparently when I ask for things, I need to pay more attention.

It's not that I need a guy to make me happy. I have Riley, he will always make me happy. We all get lonely, and again, yes I have Riley, and he will always fill my heart with love, but there is just certain attention a boyfriend/relationship can bring. I do believe it'll happen when it is meant to, it is just very hard to be patient. I don't believe I am doing anything wrong, for I also believe everyone that enters your life has a purpose, but it is just becoming very tiring and just makes me want to give up. People always say, oh Ashley you are so young, don't worry about it. Well, I am 29, and I guess that is young to some people, but I never wanted to be single for majority of my life, so excuse me if I take offense to that statement.

I am not bashing the person who said that I don't love God enough, or he wasn't in my life enough at all. But in a way it kind of offends me. Who is anyone to say that my relationship with God effects who comes into my life? There are a lot of people who don't even believe in God, so what would this person say to them?

There are many factors that make dating hard for me. None that need to be displayed all over the internet, lol, but I am just like everyone else who wants to be loved, and not judged for it.

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