Heat

March isn't usually the month that I need to worry about getting to hot while working or being outside. Except this year in Minnesota isn't like any other year. The past couple of weeks have been 60+ temperatures, which is awesome, but I work at Target, and they are not prepared for this beautiful weather yet either and I get so damn hot when I work it isn't even funny.

I worked on Monday, and about 5 minutes after I started working, literally, I started sweating. Like dripping down my face, my neck everywhere sweating. It is disgusting. I know when I get hot my face gets beat red, I can handle that, but dripping in sweat? Gross. My body has been messed up since I had Riley. My hormones are all out of whack. I am just seriously wondering when things will get back to normal. A lot of issues have taken FOREVER to go back to normal. Has anyone else dealt with this after having a baby? I know I don't so well in heat, but this is ridiculous. I almost passed out even, and I had just ate, full tummy and blah.

Very random post

So, I was on my way to work the other day and I was listening to Katy Perry's CD. Her song E.T. came on, and it got me thinking. Movies and TV shows and just social media have their own perceptions on what aliens look like. Movies a lot of times make them look fairly similar to us, but in all honesty, I highly doubt that they look anything like human beings.

Told you this was a weird post. ha! Anyway, have you seen District 9? That is what I would imagine aliens would look like. Not necessarily bug like looking creatures, but completely different from human beings. It would be pretty boring if every creature in the universe looked the same don't you think? We have so many different species on earth alone that are so very different, so why would anyone think aliens would look like us?

Again, I know very random, but it's been bugging me. Do I think they look like the little space creatures they draw all the time? Not at all, but I do not believe they are close to what humans look like at all.

So, enough with my random alien rant! I added a new page, Character Banners, just a little something extra to expand my portfolio! Enjoy!!!

Bad Day

I am not sure if this is a feeling all mothers get or not, but some days, I just really feel like I am a bad mother. Not for anything that I particularly did, but Riley was testing me a lot today and I got very frustrated and I just feel if I was a better mother he wouldn't be so naughty. I don't know if I am just being down on myself or what the deal is.

He loves to push buttons on remotes and phones and TVs. Well today, he was pushing our living room TV on and off, it's a big 50 some inch flat screen and turning it on and off takes a few seconds because it needs to fire up, so turning it on and off can't be too good for it. I don't know, I don't know electronics, but I tell him no, move him away, put hi with his other toys, be firm, and he completely ignores what I say or do. Yelling obviously doesn't work with a 14 month old, and I don't yell at him anyway because if you yell, when you are actually mad, they'll never know. Yelling never solves anything, and I am completely against any type of spanking. So I have no idea what to do and I feel like I am just failing,

I was just so out of it today too, that doesn't help either. According to some people, I am not allowed to have days like this though. I know raising a child is hard, and many have people have done it before, but everyone is different and its hard when I don't get that luxury of people understanding that doing this job effects everyone differently. It would be nice to have encouragement from people who see me parenting Riley. When you put people down enough, they start to believe it, heard that before? Same this applies when you don't hear anything good.

Maybe I am just having a bad day, but I hate days like this, and I never want Riley to feel like I am not the best mom ever. Blah to this day!