Who knows

I like having all this time off to spend with Riley, but I do need money. As much as I just loathe work sometimes, I still need to do it and get paid. But in 2 weeks I only have 16 hours total, that really makes it hard for me to really do anything. It is kind of bumming me out. But on a happier note, I was able to make a web layout for my friend Becky @ Book Bite Reviews. Layout design in blogger is still new to me, but I was able to help her out and that made me feel good.

I still really haven't figured out what I want to do with my life. I have my bachelor's degree but now that I have it, I'm just like well, now what? I love history, but to do what what I really want with history, I'd have to move to a bigger city with a big museum. Or get my masters or phd to teach specific history. But I also love designing. I would LOVE to be able to make book covers for a living, but I don't really know how to go about doing that either. I really do not know what to do.

Some pictures of my love!

I don't get things....

Life has changed so much since I've had Riley. Some good, some bad. He makes me world worth living. He is my life, and it seems that some people in all honesty do not understand that. I very much miss hanging out with my friends, but unlike most of my friends who do have kids, I do not have a husband, so I cannot just leave him with his "dad" and go and hang out. My parents do help me out when I work, and we all live together, but that doesn't make them automatic baby sitters. I feel guilty enough leaving Riley with them when I work. It is very generous of them to do this for me. Granted it is their grandson, but they are much older and its been awhile since they've dealt with kids, so it's not as easy to have them baby sit all the time. Nor should I just assume that they will baby sit so I can go party or get drunk. Which I don't drink anymore anyway. That is another issue I don't think people get either, which is really sad. So, like I said, I am not married, so the person who puts Riley to bed, and the only person who has is me, his mother. I do not expect my parents to ever have to do this, I don't work late so I can be home so I can put him to bed. It isn't my parents job to do this. I am his mother, it is my job. Once again, another issue some people do not understand. I really thought I would have more incommonw ith people once I had Riley, but it just sees like it is pulling me away from everyone, and no one honestly seems to care or notice.