Friday, April 13, 2012

I don't get things....

Life has changed so much since I've had Riley. Some good, some bad. He makes me world worth living. He is my life, and it seems that some people in all honesty do not understand that. I very much miss hanging out with my friends, but unlike most of my friends who do have kids, I do not have a husband, so I cannot just leave him with his "dad" and go and hang out. My parents do help me out when I work, and we all live together, but that doesn't make them automatic baby sitters. I feel guilty enough leaving Riley with them when I work. It is very generous of them to do this for me. Granted it is their grandson, but they are much older and its been awhile since they've dealt with kids, so it's not as easy to have them baby sit all the time. Nor should I just assume that they will baby sit so I can go party or get drunk. Which I don't drink anymore anyway. That is another issue I don't think people get either, which is really sad. So, like I said, I am not married, so the person who puts Riley to bed, and the only person who has is me, his mother. I do not expect my parents to ever have to do this, I don't work late so I can be home so I can put him to bed. It isn't my parents job to do this. I am his mother, it is my job. Once again, another issue some people do not understand. I really thought I would have more incommonw ith people once I had Riley, but it just sees like it is pulling me away from everyone, and no one honestly seems to care or notice.


  1. I don't know how it is to be a single mom. I commend you. It's the hardest job in the world being a mom, and I have help! I do understand the not having much to do with old friends. Motherhood can be very lonely.

  2. Thank you Sarah, its the hardest job but the most rewarding! Yes, it can be extremely lonely.